User blog:Dreamforever362/What Happened? Trust Should Be The Easiest....

What happened to us? Not us just as in us here, but us as in the human race. I just don't understand why everyone has to lie and cheat. Everything has gotten so complicated, and there is no reason for it to be. People you grow up thinking you can trust, it turns out you never could. Then someone comes along and turns everything around, tells you everything you knew was a lie, and they should have been your reality. You want to trust them, you want to trust everyone in that new world, but you were raised in an environment where to trust is to get hurt.

This is me. I want to trust everyone with everything I have, and I know I should be able to, but I just can't bring myself to. I don't know what's stopping me, and I wish whatever it was would go away, but.....I don't know how to describe it. It's almost like I'm in this excluded little world. I know there are others out there, some who are like me, but I don't know which I can trust. I don't know what's real, and what's a cover-up. I wish I could tear down the walls and let everyone in, but even I end up doubting myself sometimes. It's so frustrating sometimes, even near impossible. I want to trust, I really do, but right now, well, It's just going to take a while. I'll try my best to trust you all, but it will take a while. I've lived almost 15 years doubting everyone at all times. I hope you all can forgive me for how I've been acting. I promise I'll do better than my best efforts to trust again. I want to be able to trust everyone again, I really do. I know I don't deserve it, but if anyone can help me, please. I'm not ashamed to ask for help, I know when I need it. This is one of those times. I can't go through the rest of my life, not matter how short or long it may be, not trusting anyone.

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~Bianca, Daughter of Anestathumb|300px|right